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I have not been as present on this blog as I used to be these past few months. Therefore, I thought it would be good to talk to you all about what has been happening lately. As many of you know, I moved to Portland from L.A. last September so that I could start grad school. I decided to make the move because there was something about Portland that truly inspired me. Although I do love this city, there have been many times when I’ve struggled to remember exactly what that was. I think my lack of enthusiasm stems from the fact that I’ve hardly had time to enjoy the city. Just these last few weeks of school I’ve been juggling the stress of finals and starting an internship. Needless to say, that schedule has left left me with little time to sleep or hang out with friends.
Moving here has also taken a toll on my anxiety. I’ve never mentioned this before, but I started going to therapy for anxiety and depression back in LA. Through that, I gained some pretty good skills to cope with what I was going through at the time. Moreover, I started learning how to identify things that triggered me to fall into those slumps or moments of panic.ย I felt like I was in a pretty good space before my big move, but being away from my support system made it very difficult to deal with all the changes and difficult situations that came along with being in a new place. It’s been difficult getting over the feeling of being homesick and missing family and friends, and simply just being in a landscape that I can easily navigate and feels familiar to me.
On top of all the emotional stress I’ve dealing with, I never quite realized how hard it would be for me to adjust to the change in weather. While it was not very difficult for me to deal with the drop in temperature here in Portland, I have had a much harder time getting used to the gray skies which really affect my mood. I’ve recently found out that this isn’t only the case in the wintertime since it has been very gloomy this summer. I’ve already invested in a happy lamp and am looking forward to better days, but it’s been tough.
While life here in Portland is getting more exciting and stress-free for me, and I hope to continue to write about my adventures, I wanted to write this because I don’t want to present a very narrow view of my life that’s just pretty pictures of clothes, food and coffee. I also want to learn to challenge my frustrations and try to turn them into something positive either via this blog or other creative outlets. So here’s to less stress and more creativity for the rest of the year!
xoxo,
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  • Thanks so much for sharing something so personal on the blog. I think it would be really hard being away from your support system when you're going through so much and making such a big change. I know you'll get through this though – you can do it! I also don't know what's with this gloomy weather lately but it'll get sunny soon, I promise! Let me know if you ever need to chat!

    Tina

    • Thanks for such a sweet comment and your words of encouragement, Tina! I believe the weather will get better if you say it will! ๐Ÿ˜€

    • I hear this weekend is supposed to be nice!! ๐Ÿ™‚

  • thank you for sharing! moving is definitely an emotional ordeal. I hope you find time to enjoy Portland and make meaningful friendships there! I live in Seattle and frequent Portland often, and while it's gloomy, there are lots of awesome things to do there and I hope you can integrate into the community. best of luck!

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    • Thanks so much for your kind words, Carolyn! I do love what I've experienced of Portland so far and hope to further integrate into the community as time goes on. ๐Ÿ˜€

  • Aww thank you for sharing this! You're not alone. Being away from home can be tough sometimes. I had anxiety when I was in LA after my dad passed away. It affected my undergraduate career and forced me to spend a year and half more than I anticipated. Just a lack of motivation and life in general. I started seeing a professional who helped me see the brighter side of things and to cope with my fear of "uncertainty". Some days, I still get panic attacks (weirdly when I'm shopping haha) but I attributed that to my caffeine intake (I like to get coffee while I'm shopping) which meant I had to cut down on coffee. Also, it's been stressful lately as Charles is venturing into starting his own business so that's been stressful. Things will get better though! It has for me!

    On a lighter note, what a cute outfit! It's so summery!

    • First of all, thank you for sharing your experience as well Katherine, and thank you for your kind words. I have noticed that my caffeine is also triggered by my caffeine intake which is why I've been trying to cut back. It's been tough since I love it, but it's been so helpful!

  • Thanks for sharing your story, hope you're loving Portland!

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  • The weather definitely takes some time to get used to, keep it up! And I love this casual chic look!

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  • This is such a gorgeous look, love it! <3 ๐Ÿ™‚
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  • Gorgeous look, so summery its perfect and the location is sooo pretty!

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