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I have not been as present on this blog as I used to be these past few months. Therefore, I thought it would be good to talk to you all about what has been happening lately. As many of you know, I moved to Portland from L.A. last September so that I could start grad school. I decided to make the move because there was something about Portland that truly inspired me. Although I do love this city, there have been many times when I’ve struggled to remember exactly what that was. I think my lack of enthusiasm stems from the fact that I’ve hardly had time to enjoy the city. Just these last few weeks of school I’ve been juggling the stress of finals and starting an internship. Needless to say, that schedule has left left me with little time to sleep or hang out with friends.
Moving here has also taken a toll on my anxiety. I’ve never mentioned this before, but I started going to therapy for anxiety and depression back in LA. Through that, I gained some pretty good skills to cope with what I was going through at the time. Moreover, I started learning how to identify things that triggered me to fall into those slumps or moments of panic. I felt like I was in a pretty good space before my big move, but being away from my support system made it very difficult to deal with all the changes and difficult situations that came along with being in a new place. It’s been difficult getting over the feeling of being homesick and missing family and friends, and simply just being in a landscape that I can easily navigate and feels familiar to me.
On top of all the emotional stress I’ve dealing with, I never quite realized how hard it would be for me to adjust to the change in weather. While it was not very difficult for me to deal with the drop in temperature here in Portland, I have had a much harder time getting used to the gray skies which really affect my mood. I’ve recently found out that this isn’t only the case in the wintertime since it has been very gloomy this summer. I’ve already invested in a happy lamp and am looking forward to better days, but it’s been tough.
While life here in Portland is getting more exciting and stress-free for me, and I hope to continue to write about my adventures, I wanted to write this because I don’t want to present a very narrow view of my life that’s just pretty pictures of clothes, food and coffee. I also want to learn to challenge my frustrations and try to turn them into something positive either via this blog or other creative outlets. So here’s to less stress and more creativity for the rest of the year!